Ok. All hope isn’t lost.
Elskan mín & I have reconnected. Things are moving forward. Maybe spring will thaw us out of winters gloom soon, but my hearts been warmed and I feel I can carry on again.
Of course things aren’t perfect. I have things to work on. He does as well. We both have to continue to learn to communicate with each other in the most healthy way. But I’m glad I didn’t just blow up. Or completely shut down. I wasn’t feeling happy but I was able to wait, albeit impatiently. Maybe I’m learning.
Relationships are as challenging as they are rewarding. As a natural hermit I have to really feel a good connection with someone to even want to bother. He’s worth that bother. And I’m willing to take the bullshit that invariably comes with the blessings. Nothing is perfect. I’m sure that I’m a total pain in the ass sometimes. I was more than half convinced that he’d decided to say fuck off. But when we saw each other, hugged each other, I could feel our mutual relief. Mutual gratitude. It’s the best feeling to be taken into the arms of someone who was recently furious with you. Being loved in the face of your imperfections is so powerful.
And a little bit of make up sex never hurts either!